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(no subject) [Jan. 15th, 2009|02:02 pm]
Ashley
It's snowing. Yay!

It's childish for me to even say something like that as I'm not even going to play in it, but I at least find it pretty to look at and diverts me away from my mundane life.
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Writer's Block: Tricky Questions [Jan. 13th, 2009|07:22 pm]
Ashley
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What is your first reaction when someone says "I need to talk to you"?


I either think, "Someone has a secret," or "OH NOES! I DID SOMETHING EMBARRASSING OR OFFENSIVE!"
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Friends Only [Feb. 19th, 2006|06:45 am]
Ashley
This is going to be a friends only journal. If you're interested just add me. I just made a few entries public because I don't care if anybody reads them.
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Part 2: A Perfect and Poignant Day [Jan. 16th, 2006|11:04 am]
Ashley
It's been months since I updated this but after that incident in May everything cooled down dramatically.
My mom told me to write down The Lord is my Shepard and Psalm 100 on index cards and recite them whenever something goes wrong. That's what I did but it's a damn shame that I lost the cards because those cards would've reminded me of a beautiful memory.
Mom and I recited Psalm 100 together:

Shout joyfully to the Lord, all the earth.
Serve the Lord with gladness;
Come before him with Joyful singing.
Know that the Lord Himself is God;
It is He who has made us and not we ourselves;
We are His people and the sheep of His pasture.
Enter His gates with thanksgiving,
And His courts with praise.
Give thanks to Him; bless his name.
For the Lord is good;
His lovingkindness is everlasting,
And His faithfulness to all generations

I'm not even religious, I'm not even sure if that's even the exact passage but whatever it was it sure made a difference. The Bible does have good things in it sometimes even if you don't believe in it. I would ask my mom if that's the right one but it's not possible now, we're not that close, we were never that close. Everytime she attempts to be nice it comes out phony and everyone knows it. I think on that day was the only time she didn't act all fake and insincere just to make herself feel better. For the first time in my life, she really did help.

To be continued...
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Hi everyone... [Nov. 5th, 2005|05:20 pm]
Ashley
I'm just here to let people know that I'm still around. Nobody ever reads this journal, it's so lame. Then again I haven't been updating much because I don't feel like saying anything lately.
I've seen a lot of great movies worth talking about here, a few cool events and life is ok but I'm just here to write for no reason, that's all.
Wow, one of my shortest journal entries ever.
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Nice thought.... [Jun. 23rd, 2005|04:20 pm]
Ashley
Your Christ is Jewish
Your car is Japanese
Your pizza pie is Italian
Your rice is Chinese
Your democracy is Greek
Your watch is Swiss
Your shirt is Indian
Your radio is Korean
Your holidays are American
Your figures are Arab
Your writing is Latin and...
You reproaches with your neighbor to be a foreigner????

No, I did not write this. I just love this poem and it makes you think. I would have more to say but I'm really tired.
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Fans [May. 30th, 2005|03:08 pm]
Ashley
[mood |goodgood]

As I've probably mentioned a few times, I wished that I had my own fanbase for the livejournal. Sometimes I write as if I'm trying to appeal to an audience yet I'm having so much fun at the same time. I write this entertain others and myself.

If you find this journal even slightly interesting then you can leave a comment. I really want to know who is reading it and why.
My friend says that my journal is one of the best because mine is almost like a social commentary rather than something bland like what I ate for breakfast or I'm pissed at my parents because they grounded me. I hate being a braggart but even if I do write about those shallow topics they seem to have an interesting twist.

Then again, why the hell should I apologize for bragging? It's my journal, I write whatever the hell I want. It's not like I'm putting this on the New York Times even though I wouldn't mind it ;-)
It's not my fault that people are too lazy to put more into their journals. 99 out of 100 journals that I've read were so boring that I scrolled down to find something halfway interesting or just clicked the "X" to get out of the browser.

I'm proud of myself. I'm glad that I feel like my life is worth writing in a journal. I'm not saying that I'm the next Anne Frank (who wrote deeper stuff than people twice her age when she was 13)but I just have the self-esteem to say that I'm one of the most interesting people I know.
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I Love You... [May. 24th, 2005|08:59 pm]
Ashley
[mood |complacentcomplacent]

I wish I could say those words to somebody. I know I could just walk up to my parents or sister and say it right now because that would be meaningless. You're supposed to love your family, your family loves you because they have unconditional love for you.
The reason I'm writing this right now is because Genovia said that saying "I Love You" to anyone is just saying meaningless words.
We cannot pour our hearts and souls to every person we meet. We must save that for someone we truly love. Maybe there are a handful of people that you'll truly love unconditonally. Whether it be a boyfriend, spouse or child but there is only ONE person in the entire world that you'll love no matter what happens.
I know I shouldn't be the one who says this but I just feel it. I think about it all the time. I know I'm probably not the most intelligent, deepest and influental person you've ever met but just think about what I've said. I do not know why I'm asking you to do so but this is an interesting thought.
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Back in the day... [May. 7th, 2005|08:56 pm]
Ashley
[mood |nostalgicnostalgic]

What do you remember? I seem to remember a lot. I feel really old right now...


[x] Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
[ ] Fraggle Rock
[x] G.I. Joe
[x] Are You Afraid of the Dark?
[x] Secret World of Alex Mack
[x] Bug Juice
[x] Nightmare Before Christmas
[x] Welcome Freshman
[] Space Cases
[x] Roundhouse (always went to bed before it came on at 8:30)
[x] The Muppet Show
[x] Muppet Babies
[x] Eureka's Castle
[x] Salute Your Shorts
[x] Legends of the Hidden Temple
[] You Can't Do That On Television
[x] G.U.T.S.
[x] What Would You Do? with mark summers!!
[x] Double Dare
[x] Rocko's Modern Life
[x] All That
[x] Ren and Stimpy
[x] Clarissa Explains It All
[x ] The Torklesons
[x] The Adventures of Pete and Pete
[x] Stick Stickley Write to me,
[x] Goodburger
[x] Angry Beavers
[x] Hey Arnold!
[x] AAH! Real Monsters
[x] Tiny Toons
[x] Animaniacs
[x] Pinky and the Brain
[x] The Babysitter's Club
[ ] Underdog
[x] Kablam!
[x] Gullah Gullah Island (one of my favorites, catchy theme song :-)
[ ]Richard Scarry
[x] Dumbo's Circus
[ ] Ocean Girl
[x] Mystery Files of Shelby Woo
[ ] Snick Snacks
[x] Dunkaroos
[x] SNICK
[x] Koala Yummies
[x] Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego?
[x] Nick Magazine
[x] The Goonies
[x] Ernest Movies
[ ] Radio Flyer
[x] Disney Watchers
[x] Adventures in Wonderland
[x] Homeward Bound
[ ] The Adventures of Yellow Dog
[x] Milo and Otis
[x] Neverending Story
[x] Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
[x] The Lion King
[x] Labyrinth
[x] 101 Dalmations
[x] The Secret Garden
[ ] Pete's Dragon
[x] Hocus Pocus
[] Secret of Roan Inish
[x] Land Before Time
[x] Dinosaurs
[x] Fern Gully
[x] Secret of NIMH
[x] Gummi Bears
[x] Care Bears
[x] My Little Pony
[x] Black Beauty
[x] Rainbow Brite
[x] Lady Lovely Locks
[x] Candyland
[x] Sorry!
[x] Trouble
[x]Don't Wake Daddy
[x] Mousetrap
[x] Jenga
[ ] Don't Break the Ice
[x] Hungry Hungry Hippos
[x] Pretty Pretty Princess
[ ] Tinker Toys
[x] Cooties
[x] The castles that made tea sets
[ ] Polly Pocket
[x] Hypercolor T-Shirts
[x] Lite Brite
[x] Sky Dancers
[x] Scrunchies
[x] Side Ponytails
[ ] Stirrup Pants
[x] Jellies
[x] Saddle Shoes
[x] Barbies
[x] Beanie Babies
[x] Tamagotchies (never really good at keeping that damn thing alive lol)
[x] Yo-Yos
[x] duncans
[ ] Choose Your Own Adventure
[x] Pogs
[x] Goosebumps
[ ] Magic Attic Club
[x] American Girl
[ ] Island of the Blue Dolphin
[x] Saved By The Bell
[x] Full House
[x] Step By Step
[x] TGIF on ABC
[x] Sabrina, the Teenage Witch
[x] Boy Meets World
[x] Clueless
[x] Mork and Mindy
[x] Simpsons
[x] Flipper
[x] Growing Pains
[x] Family Ties
[x] Titanic
[x] Felix The Cat: The Movie
[x] Jonathan Taylor Thomas
[x] Home Improvement
[x] Tom and Huck
[x] My Brother and Me
[x] Kenan and Kel
[x] Hanson
[x] Inspector Gadget
[x] Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
[x] Power Rangers
[x] Hot Wheels
[ ] Creepy Crawlers
[x] Easy Bake Oven
[ ] Flower Making Kits
[x] Wild and Crazy Kids
[x] Playdough McDonald's Sets
[x] Animorphs
[ ]Rainbow Fish
[x] If You Give A Mouse A Cookie
[ ] Bailey School Kids
[x]Wayside School
[x] Mrs. Piggle Wiggle
[x] Boxcar Children books
[x] Ramona Quimby
[ ] Amber Brown
[x] Allegra's Window
[ ] 3-2-1 Contact
[x] Spice Girls
[x} The Brave Little Toaster (one of the best kid's movies ever)
[x] Bananas In Pajamas
[x] One Saturday Morning on ABC
[x] Transformers
[x]Spice Girls suckers
[x]Waynes World
[ ] the dancing baby
[x] nancy drew novels
[x] catdog
[ ] shamomo the cat (wtf??)
[x] captain planet
[x] "Face" on Nickelodeon
[ ] Nickelodeon Gakmark
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Video Game Pianist! [May. 7th, 2005|01:11 am]
Ashley
Martin Leung is amazing. He plays the theme songs of video games BLINDFOLDED and in amazing accuracy. He's so talented that his piano version sounds better than the original songs themselves. If that isn't talent, I don't know what is.
Here is a few links: www.myspace.com/videogamepianist
www.videogamepianist.com
www.ebaumsworld.com/mariopiano
You don't have to be a video game geek to enjoy this. Martin's music sounds just as great as classical music and even though I'm not a huge video game fan myself, I'm still amazed.
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Boring Life... [Apr. 30th, 2005|12:38 pm]
Ashley
[mood |boredbored]

This weekend is going to be as boring as all the other weekends. My life is boring as hell, I wish that somebody could come into my life and spice things up. If my life was a book, would anybody read it? I hope so and I want my life to be that way. A life exciting enough to be a book or movie.
Here is my typical weekend:

Saturday

11:00 am- I wake up. Yep, I wasted half the day sleeping because I've spent the entire Friday night watching the either the South Park or Wonder Showzen marathon. Or I've surfed the Internet, chatting with my friends during ungodly hours (if you have overprotective parents, you'll know what I mean) and being addicted to myspace all night, spending hours upon hours adding quizzes and movie posters to my profile and checking messages.
Why can't I do normal things on Friday nights? Like go over to a friend's house, or a concert at the downtown? Or crash a houseparty? Dammit, I feel like a lame-ass :-)

11:00-6:00 pm- Blah, blah blah... I'm bored as hell. I go on the Internet and waste my life spending hours on Internet Movie Database, Quizilla and of course, My Space
I talk to my sister or dad for awhile while my mom goes to work. I sit in front of the TV, wishing that something halfway decent came on during the weekend mornings (yep, i grew out of watching saturday morning cartoons)and all I can find is crap Infomercials, MTV and cheesy early 90's sitcoms. Well, what do I choose? MTV or course, despite that I'm starting to like it less and less these days.
Oh yeah, I also spend awhile reading the library book that I checked out last week but never got around to reading.

6:00-9:00 pm- I either go to the Sunrise Mall, which sucks btw because nothing ever happens there but at least it's walking distance. I occasionally run into somebody I've met from St. John's or an old friend or foe from Amityville. Dammit, why is it either extreme of the friendliness and likeable spectrum whenever I see somebody from my old A-ville middle school at the mall.
If my parents have a lame excuse like it's too cold outside/it's getting dark/there are rapist stalkers on the loose then I'm forced to stay home. If I stay home I'm either watching Degrassi or whatever is on The-N. If not The-N, it's some Law & Order spinoff on TBS or TNT. Damn, I missed the lastest episode of Law & Order: Trial by Jury yesterday.

9:00-4:00 am- Stay up however long I please. I'm up watching Mad TV or SNL. I'm really desperate for a laugh even though the only thing I like about SNL is Weekend Update and even that's getting crappy ever since Jimmy Fallon left.
I watch a random classic, foreign or cult movie with Gabrielle that mom and dad would object to us watching because the movie is either rated R or too eccentric for their taste.
Or I watch a movie with the entire family that dad just rented from the library. Mom falls asleep on the couch (as she does for every movie, lol) Dad eats his popcorn and tells me to get my own when I ask him for some and Gabrielle either walks in and out of the den where the movie is playing on the big screen TV or she tells everyone "Stop talking during the movie!"

Sunday

10:00 am- I'm a bit depressed that I have to go to school tommorrow and just act all sad and miserable for awhile.

11:00-7:00 pm- Watch TV and think of when I'm going to get the next extended school vacation. This time it's Ascension Thursay and St. John's day where there is a huge fair! Yay!
I think heavily and spend most of my time alone in my room, find a good movie to watch and find a book to read. Do the typical Internet stuff I usually do. I usually read more during this time of day for whatever reason.

7:00- 8:00pm- Mom says to get ready for school and I procrastinate. Yeah, I do stuff like wash my clothes and do my bland as hell homework and study for the test I should've studied for days ago.

8:00-11:00- I set up my alarm clock for 5:00am. No, I don't have to wake up that early but I feel better pressing the snooze button 3 times before waking up at 6:15 for Monday morning.
Mom yells "Go to bed!" as I procrastinate on that, doing my last bit of homework and eager to finish what ever was interesting on TV.

This is the day and the life of the weekend of Ashley. There is no weekend like mine even though people have similar bland weekends. One day I'll have an exciting life, oh I wish that day will come soon.
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Pothead SJB... [Apr. 29th, 2005|09:49 pm]
Ashley
[mood |numbnumb]

If you went to St. John's today you've probably seen the presentation It's My Life! today. I can honestly say I was dissapointed but I at least I got out of half of 8th period and 9th period.
SJB (St. John the Bapist) has a reputation of being a pothead school and if you want to convice kids there not to do drugs, you better do a damn good job lol.

On weed day (every April 20th) a dog came to my school and the entire school had to stay inside 3rd period for an hour and a half because the dog was sniffing the locking checking for illegal stuff.
I heard that so many kids were so scared that they were going to get expelled because plenty of people have weed in their lockers. From what I heard some people were crying because they were afraid of getting in trouble. After we left the unusually extended 3rd period, this kid said "That's one stupid dog" because rumors have it that the dog found nothing.

I hope that the dog checked EVERY damn locker and not just a chosen few because that's just cruel and discrimatory, especially when the person is NOT GUILITY.
Last year, in 9th grade there was this girl practically in tears because one of her best friend's locker was investigated. She kept saying "I know he doesn't do drugs, just because he looks like he does, doesn't mean that he is." and was pissed at all the people who spread rumors about her friends. Rumors are such bullshit, they practically ruin everything and the people of the admistration are assholes for listening to vicious rumors like that.
I think that nobody should believe in anything until you actually see it for yourself. Be skeptical about everything you hear because if you don't question anything, false ideas and events will be known as the truth when it really isn't.
I have a feeling that the dog only sniffed through a few lockers because if it looked at every single one, half the damn school would get expelled. I recently learned that there is a guy in my school who doesn't only sell pot, but he grows it in his backyard! This guy didn't get caught by his parents yet? Yeah, it's pretty funny though, that sounds rude of me but who cares? It's not like weed is a real drug anyway...

It's not like the PA system is going to announce who's a pothead but stuff like this spreads around the student body like wildfire, so you're gonna know anyway. Well, I didn't know of anyone who got in trouble.
There was a guy who said that the dog was sniffing for bombs because of a bomb threat at the school. If there was a bomb threat then why didn't we leave the school and stand outside? There were like 5 bomb threats a year back in my old school at Amityville, whenever there was a bomb threat, the entire school would stand outside for half the day until whoever did did it got caught.

There was a presenter for It's My Life and my peers thought he was "stupid cheesy-ass faggot" as mean as that sounds. I would never say or think anything like that but those four words sum up every rude thing my classmates said about the guy.

I think that he was nice and meant well but he fell short of being a good presenter and actually relating to us teens. He kept laughing to himself and saying how silly he is. Well, if you think you're an idoit, everyone is going to treat you that way. That's what Mr. Dunbar said a couple of times and this guy proves him right. He tried to crack a couple of jokes which I don't even remember, that's how lame it was. Then he talked about how the video applies to everyone and not just people who are on drugs or getting pressured to do so. Well, 80% of the video was "don't do drugs" so it didn't apply to me at all.

I'll admit that I liked the music soundtrack for the video though, whoever picked out the music worked very hard at doing it and analyzed the music very well. The music was stuff that most teens like so therefore the video appealed to me in that sense. I also liked the cinematography and special affects they had, that was VERY well done. It was flashy (in a good way), cool and fast paced.

I liked the way it was produced but I just hated the way the message was sent. It didn't scare anyone out of doing drugs. It didn't show how anyone actually suffered from it, like the actual physical and mental affects of it. If you want to watch something that will scare somebody out of doing drugs watch TRAINSPOTTING. Trainspotting is a movie about a couple of guys in the drug culture who want to quit using heroin. The movie is Scottish, so therefore you might have a hard time understanding the thick accents but you don't need to understand much dialogue of this movie for it to impact you.
Also, I wish It's My Life would scare people out of thinking about drugs like the presenter Pam Stenzel scared the shit out of me when I saw the sex talk video with her presenting. Wow, I almost considered going celebate because of that crazy, overzealous bitch in the video. It's as if opening your legs will automatically give you herpes and pregnancy according to that lady.

It's My Life just said "Don't do drugs because you'll never achieve anything and you're parents will be disappointed. That's not good enough for some kids. They'll use rock stars as role models for people who do drugs and still make it in life and most teens are so pissed at their parents that they don't give a damn. They'd hide their stash from their parents to avoid being shouted at though.

Some people might say "What about that washed up lady, who became a drug addict and got arrested 12 times?"
Well, the video didn't show her actually suffering from her addiction. She wasn't shaking from withdrawal or constantly sweating or basically appearing as if she is about to burst out "Must have drugs, NOW!" in a fit as if she's insane.
All it did was show her, looking miserable and saying "I regret doing drugs". She looked unkempt too but sober people can look unkempt too. The people who you'd least expect to do drugs, are actually on drugs. People are ignorant of that all the time. Kids are going to think "I don't look or act like her, I have nothing to worry about."

There was one message in the video that I really liked. To sum it up it said "Be yourself and don't let friends dictate your life and your ambitions because only the future matters. As soon as you leave High School, your reputation won't matter." Some kids are called losers for taking their passions too seriously. If you're too passionate about something you're considered geeky, a nerd, a suck up or teacher's pet. That is true about some people though (I'll elaborate more on another journal entry) but for the majority who have goals we just want to achieve them.
Teens encourage each other to be apathetic because they're jealous of anyone who achieves more than they do in any area. The older you get, the more compeitive things are going to get and teens get upset over anyone who appears to be doing better in life than they are. If apathy is encouraged that means that no one will be ambitious or at least be meek and secretive about it. This is what a compeititive, capitalist society does to us, no I'm not against capitalism but it has it's flaws like communism and socialism.
Everyone aspires to be rich and famous at some point of their lives, some teens still have the illusion they'll be famous and rich someday and as soon as they grow up they think "That's it? That's all my life means to anyone?" because they realize that fame is extremely rare for a person to have.

There was one thing I really hated. Most of the teens in the video who were supposed to inspire us were athletes aka jocks. I have nothing against athletics but that video only appealed to people who were into that football/cheerleading/homecoming stuff. That stuff is decent but there is more to my life that that stuff, at times it can even become superficial. They kept saying "This jock got an disease but that didn't let him down! He was determined to play next season, no matter what the cost."
What about the artists? The writers? The musicians? The people who aren't athletically superior but still go through great lengths and overcome difficulties to achieve.
Outside of athletics they briefly mention Rosa Parks and Susan B. Anthony but that's about it. Of course they'll briefly mention them, they're adults but the sad thing is that they never mention teens who aren't throwing around a softball or football.
I know that someone will say, "What about those kids who said they wanted to be teachers?" Well, they just talked about ambition, responsibility and hard work. They didn't even focus on those kids individually, they were all lumped to together in a rush to mention somebody other than jocks. I DON'T hate jocks but they're not anymore important than anybody else.

I agree with the general points or messages the video tries to make, like obeying your parents so you'll have less trouble at home or that responsibility will benefit you in the long run and it's just not there to restrict you.

Well, enough of my ranting. This is probably the longest journal I've written so far. Yep, I'm writing this journal while a kid in my school is probably sneaking out of her house and gettin' high on drugs, and she's think "Damn, that video just wanted me to do more drugs."

On a side note: Why is weed day on the same date as Hitler's birthday? That is just stupid, but whatever Hitler is an asshole and deserves to have something like "weed day" held on his birthday.
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kids and my own generation... [Apr. 28th, 2005|05:52 pm]
Ashley
[mood |nostalgicnostalgic]

Today was an interesting day. Well, it's not the most exciting day but not everyday do you get to see the teachers bring their kids to school.
I'm surprised the kids weren't stupid brats that were loud and ran down the hallway. My experience with kids were that they are annoying and loud. Most of them were between the ages of 8 and 10 which means the oldest one was born in 1995.

1995? That seems like yesterday. I was 6 at the time and some of my memories back then are as clear as the events that happened yesterday. '95 seems more like 5 years ago than, 10 years ago for some reason.
Ok, I'll admit that I'm stuck in the '90s. I don't care about the 2000's at all and I don't like my generation that much. I mean, what the hell would the teens of the '00s be remembered for? My generation is like a rip off of the 80's and the late 90s. Our music is stupid generic crap like shallow pop music full of slutty pop stars profitting off being controversial rather than having actual talent. Almost every rap song is either about bitches and ho's, bling bling or cash. Rock music is now starting to get a bit pretentious and commercialised, thanks to rock music almost nobody has individuality anymore. Rock has divided people into mobs or cliques and anyone who tries to be punk, emo, goth or indie yet doesn't fit in is being a poser. Gosh, everytime I go to a teen messageboard half the topics are named "Lables" and "Posers"
Do they know that 20 years later, shit like this wouldn't matter? I mean, you can't go to a law firm interview and wear a mohawk and chains inside your pockets. You'll either grow out of it or you'll be forced to change in order to get hired for a decent job.

It's sad that people like Paris Hilton are role models. What the hell does Paris Hilton actually DO? How did she earn her fame? No, being on "The Simple Life" and that one crap music video doesn't count.
I wish that the role models we had was somebody that actually got their fame by their own merit, NOT somebody who just happened to be rich and pretty. I don't even have to like the person that much but I'll at least respect them if they show talent!

I wonder what we'll be remembered for several years later. What would our generation be named? I wonder what could happen 30 years from now and people would yell "That's so 2005!"
I guess my generation is people born in the 80s, raised in the 90s. I actually liked growing up in the 90s as a kid, I don't know why but it was just plain fun. I already feel nostaligic about it even though it ended 5 years ago.

Kids today aren't any worse or better than they were back when I was a kid, I just hope that they're generation has a more intelligent, exciting and better reputation than ours but sadly it doesn't look that way. Back in the day, the kids channel Nickelodeon was really cool. Shows like "All That" (with the oldest cast, not the shitty new one they have now), "Salute Your Shorts" and "My Brother & Me" were pretty cool. Now Nicklodeon just has these crappy brainless cartoons. Do they really think children are that stupid? Perphaps they are and I just don't realize it because I'm usually not around a lot of kids.
They have one cool advantage though, they have better clothes. Do you realize that 6 year olds are now dressing like adults and teens? When we were that young we had what was literally called "kid's clothes". Just go back to your closet and look for the stuff you wore 10 years ago and compare it to what you see kids wearing now, you'll be surprised. We had those silly little shoes with velcro straps and a shirt or sweater with "Barney" or "Power Rangers" on it, kids today have brand name clothes.

I'm not sure if I want children. Every time I see a child I either wish I was little again or wonder how it would be like if I had children one day. Oh well, I don't think it's worth it. Kids are too much money and they can be bratty and draining if you can't discipline them right. Childbirth also hurts like hell, so I know that I'm not planning on doing anything like that anytime soon.

Talking to kids can be really cute and funny though. There was this guy who told this 8 year old boy to tell the teacher "Go tell your mommy that we had "the talk" and spoke about girls". It was just hilarious, I wish I had humor like that :-)
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It's just me... [Apr. 27th, 2005|04:59 pm]
Ashley
[mood |okayokay]

Hi,
I'm Ashley and I have no idea what to write on this journal right now. However, I have this complusive need to do it write now. Maybe I'm curious to see who my audience is, or what complete strangers or friends would comment about in my journal.

Most people think I'm nice-- so nice that it's odd. I think that's a good thing but lately I've been in a bad mood so therefore I might not be showing that at the moment.
I have tons of interests as you can see in my profile. You might find lots of them unusual like myself. To be honest not many-- if any people at all-- know me very well. I'm extremely quiet and no one knows much about me outside of the classroom or home where I probably act really different. Just because I'm quiet doesn't mean that I can't speak up when I want to. I'm not shy, I can easily stand in front of class and read an essay aloud.

Today something pretty cool happened. When I thought that school was going to be lame, boring and sad as usual I did amazing stuff at gym. I haven't played kickball in over a year so therefore I thought I was losing my talent. I decided to be a pitcher for my team and was rolling the ball pretty quick and nicely.
When this kid kicked the ball, I DIVED right into the gym floor on my knees to catch the ball. Afterwards I was catching every ball and making all these amazing plays. The kids started to cheer and laugh, they all had huge grins on their faces. Everyone kept calling me a MVP and for a while I felt like I had my 15 minutes of fame and glory. Today was a good day.

The only thing that kinda ruined my day was that the candy machine ate my money. Dammit, it also has that stupid "use exact change" crap on it too when I just insert a dollar. When I've actually inserted the 80cents then as soon as I thought I was gonna get my Reeces, it got stuck in the machine!
Please don't think of the minute that something like that is the main drama in my life. Really sad and crappy things that are happening to me right now are a bit too personal to put on my FIRST journal entry. I don't want to make the first impression that I'm a depressing person :-)
Other than being quiet and sort of a loner at school, I'm known for automatically laughing and similing at school no matter what the situation. You can say any stupid nonsense you won't and I'll still laugh my ass off. Some people actually think that's a good thing and I'm glad that people around me laugh with me.
I waste most of my life surfing the internet. I know it's not what a typical 16 year old should be doing but then again I'm not a typical 16 year old. Most kids my age are partying and chatting with friends all day. Whatever, I know that they have their purpose and I have mine and I'm not gonna get all sad over something I can't control.

I like going to www.google.com to research random stuff. Google is like the directory to all the amazing websites that range from fun stuff to interesting stuff to learn. I actually like learning as boring as that sounds, I read a lot of books and I spend hours at the library. Almost everything ranging from autobiographies to non-fiction. I sound like a teacher when I say this but I want to expand my intellectual horizons.

I have a sister named Gabrielle who has a live journal too, she's 14 and we're nothing alike. Especially how we've grown up in the same neighborhood with the same parents. Her entire life is dedicated to her friends and she's loud and talkative. Even though we're not much like each other nor do we have much in common, we can have some great conversations.

I love long conversations, especially when they're deeper than the typical small talk. I'm not going to be pretentious and say that I'm smarter than everyone because that's not true lol but I just like stuff like that.
I should be studying for my tests right now but I don't have the urge to do so. I don't see the point of anything in school, I know it leads me to college but I want to get out as quickly as possible. I just don't like school. I wish that all my old friends from A-ville came to St. John's with me, I do have acquaintances in SJB but it's just not the same.

I wish summer was coming by soon. I want to lie down, listen to music and watch all my favorite movies all day long. I'd also like to invite a really cool friend over during the summer too.
Wow, I probably strained everyone's eyes by writing a long introductory journal. I hope all of you at least got to know me a bit better. Writing on LJ was more fun than I expected. Expect me to write here very often.
Now I got to go see how my new journal looks like. Yay! I love my own LJ background, btw
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